Tuesday, September 1, 2015

My fate of the day.......56th impact.....dance of the whole


How and why one acts in a particular way? As per ancient Indian wisdom, it is our dosha (Vata, Pitta, and Kapha) which determine that and it gets strengthened by food. Criticism destroys everything. When I'm stepping out with my family, the next few hours of interaction is completely determined by the way I start the journey. 'Need to be right' of one person affects another person's 'self-esteem'. If I start the journey with some harsh criticism, that mood will prevail throughout the outing time.

In communication, there should be 'real listening, real sense of having an insight as we go along, each second, not at the end, but at the beginning', as K says. 'The important thing here is, not to finish out a theoretical construction but rather to attend to the right beginning point so that we do not go beyond where we haven't yet begun'. Words carry emotions and feelings. If one is not at peace at anytime, it will show when one communicates. The 'harsh criticism', instead of being 'harsh' and 'criticism', could be communicated differently, as K points out.

It is the 'blueprint', acting as my action, decides the results of my daily-lifeChange agent is food .....one is not free at all....every one is in such a journey with all kinds of perked-up feelings, no reasoning can work .... silence only can touch others...it only can impact others....it only can restrict my activities to relevant and apt... 'real sense of having an insight as we go along, each second, not at the end, but at the beginning' is being related.......problem is the solution.... how we act facing the problem is the solution...action at every instant is the solution....continuity of word and thought is the problem ..... break-it ...keep breaking the word and thought....

​An instant (ஷணம்) is a cumulative/collated contribution from every particle; live, dynamic contribution from me, others and all. Continuity is the issue/non-reality; continuity brings in a person and division. Between two instants, we bring in this continuity, through thinking and talking. Design is in such away that we either eat or talk​ or think. Eating strengthens the dosha​ and in turn makes us act in a certain way; talking gives continuity and creates a person; thinking gives continuity and creates a person;

We think or talk or eat. Trouble arises when we talk and when we act on our thinking; All the three, thinking, talking and eating lead to continuity and a person flows from that and the division.

Being in Macro, instead of ruinously getting locked-up in any micro irritants, that is 'in instants' without the continuity, opens up so much OTHER opportunities.

இந்த ஷணத்தில், சில நொடித்துளிகளே வாழும் அணு முதல், அகண்ட பிரபஞ்சம் வரை, ஆக்க நிலயில் உள்ளது. ஆக்க நிலை உணர்வு நிலை. ஆக்க நிலையில் பொருட்கள் இல்லை. பொருட்கள் நிலை நினைப்பு நிலை. ஆக்க நிலையில் தொடக்கமும் இல்லை முடிவும் இல்லை. அடைய வேண்டுயது எதுவும் இல்லை. ஆக்க நிலையில், பொருள் நிலை சொற்களுக்கு, விளக்கமும் இல்லை.


HOW & WHY ONE ACTS IN A PARTICULAR WAY:  According to ancient Indian wisdom, we all come into this world with our unique “blueprint” which is pre-installed in us at birth​.​​​ ​This blueprint creates “who we are” – our unique personality, our mental and physical characteristics. It makes us ​literally one of a kind. You may ask what is this blueprint made up of ? It is made up of the same five elements ( fire, ether, air, earth, and water) that our universe is built upon and these five elements are represented in our bodies as three doshas – Vata, Pitta, and Kapha.​​ Each one of us is made up of the combination of these three doshas. The balance or lack of these doshas in us determine our well-being, both physical and psychological. And our food plays a major part in balancing the doshas.

CRITICISMS DESTROY EVERYTHING: Whatever is happening to us is determined, shaped and results from our actions only? Is it true from our experiences? When I'm stepping out with my family, the next few hours of interaction is completely determined by the way I start the journey, whether I say something unpleasant or talk about something pleasant; if i shout at somebody, that mood will prevail for the next 30 mts; my quality of relationship in tacel case has determined whether i get the fees or not. Even in instances, where there is delay or some wrongdoing, my anxious action is not going to fetch a positive response; there also, action coming out of quiet and holistic demeanor will get holistic response.

NEED TO BE RIGHT & SELF-ESTEEM...'Protecting self-esteem' being quite a natural and instantaneous function, frequently comes across another dominant function 'need to be right', damaging relationships permanently: If all our experiences are so contingent and dependent, what is so great about all the achievements (it is totally dependent on how one acts)? Highly primed machine will achieve the same! The 'blueprint' is kept alive by the food. And it determines how I approach an instance; which in turn decides the result. My entire fate is totally determined by my action at a given moment, how I talk, how I visualize, how I contemplate on an issue, nature of my energy, whether it is positive or negative, whether it is calm & quiet or agitated, whether I am anxious. whether i am distracted by my agitated state.

This is my experience, this is what happens to me day-in-day out. All these years, my life with my family is resulting one and only from this, never ever my underlying love was a factor in determining how they respond and reciprocate back to me. This is how it goes; this is the reality. The 'blueprint', is carried in 'me' all the time, kept vibrant and alive by the food, exhibits in all my actions, in my nature. As explained above, it is the nature of my action which decides the result, that is my action decides my daily-life; so, it is the 'blueprint', acting as my action, decides the results of my daily-life.

SILENCE & FOOD: How I behave and what I get out of every moment (as it is totally related to my behaviour) is determined by food? (உடம்பில் மூன்று முடிச்சுகளும் சூரியகலை சந்திரகலையாகிய இருநாடிகளும் பாம்புபோல் பின்னிக் கிடக்கின்றன,,,,,,,p377 of Thirumanthiram Volume 1 by G Varadharajan). Prakriti, பிராணன் and food determine everything. Change agent is food. Till one realizes this, one’s life is led by prakriti and prakriti is kept alive by praanan and food......it fits in to the overall schematic...butter-fly-effect....not bound by logic or rational....one is not free at all....when one is in such a journey with all kinds of perked-up feelings, no reasoning can work.... silence only can touch others...it only can impact others....it only can restrict my activities to relevant and apt...

CHAOS THEORY & BUTTERFLY EFFECT: Suddenly, it occur​ed​ to me that even my particular thought is imposed and I'm not thinking that. Could it be a very dynamic mechanism? Yes, it is. AS THERE IS NECESSITY FOR THE BALANCE IN ENERGY, it could be brought about only with the help of particular thoughts which makes our action possible? When 56th impact of the billiard ball is having the influence of every elementary particle of the universe,  consequence of even a nano movement from us is monumental. (On one side, our relationship is completely dependent on our communication, every word & gesture have a bearing. That way, our daily life is ​totally ​determined by what we say to each other​. So, whatever be the underlying factors, the relating parties are acting only from this abstract reality/space/domain developed between them. On the other part, the physical-link, feeling, relationship is there. Irrespective of this, our daily relating will be determined only by the unique abstract domain. The temporary abstract characteristic, which carries the impact of every element in the universe,  is assumed to be permanent by both relating parties. This is dynamic inter-play of permanent and temporary entities.)

DANCE OF SHIVA...WORDLY-CONSCIOUSNESS: Every elementary particle of the universe is impacting every single action. So, the behavior of anybody relating to me, and my behaviour too, are manifestations of that impact. This is his temporary persona; his permanent persona is different, which is evolving all the time. But, I relate only to the temporary persona, similarly he also relate only to my temporary persona.  So, in spite of the absolute relationship in existence always, relating happens only between these temporary personas. When I think of the other person, it is only the temporary persona; similarly he also thinks the same way, because that persona only is addressed/related-to in relating. But, in non-relating state, both are their real-self; in relating-state, while I relate to the other temporary-persona, other person relates to my temporary-persona. SO, IN RELATING, ONLY TEMPORARY PERSONAS ACT, WHILE REAL-SELF IS IN SUSPENDED-STATE.

(he has seen how much I struggled to meet his commitment; next day,  ஒரு துளி நன்றி இல்லாமல் he is relating and responding aggressively to me. Is 'he' really acting? What does this mean? Relating has such a structure where real-facts are completely overshadowed and something else is operating). (It starts innocuously on a minor pointing out; why the guitar is not returned?; somehow, it escalates; as the abstract-pointing-out is extended, continued with back-and-forth arguments, it moves from real-person to abstract-person). 

Words can only communicate  very very little; in relating, as we act as a total person and say something, all the time implying we're acting as a total person, the other person is ONLY listening to the words said; and responding ONLY to that; I'm listening ONLY to the words and my words also may be just words. As this happens back-and-forth, words spoken and heard don't have any impact from the deep relationship. So, while both are under the impression, they're communicating as total beings with all that age-long relationship, what is communicated and heard is ONE & ONLY words.

In relating, words spoken and heard are taken as the persons, without realizing that the words, getting life and face of their own, only act. The words are different from the persons; words have life and world of their own; words, as spoken, move further and further away from the person.

Does it mean we should avoid conversation in any relationship? If one is serious while conversing, caught deeply in words, relating is between words. Otherwise, if one is casual, little playful, relaxed, exhibiting state of openness, not sticking to what one said, willing to look at alternatives, being fine with different points of view, willing to look at other options without set agenda, one can converse without getting caught in words

Getting lost in details.....preoccupied with minor irritants relentlessly and frequently, losing the big picture and the larger target. While relating, need to be aware that we continue to be caught and may be operating from there, one or both of you. There are so many positives and few negatives.....but when criticized, it appears that we are only aware of the negatives​....​WE HAVE SEEN SO MANY TIMES, TODAY'S NEGATIVE TURNING OUT TO BE TOMORROW'S BLESSING. 

Everything is perception. If you look at something seriously, with gloominess and perceived negative outcome, the approach pulls you down emotionally and makes you gloomy, irritable, angry, etc. If you look at casually, with lightness, without classifying, then even a major issue can be approached with light-heartedness,  joy and peace.

​Face the problems with joy, happiness, light-heartedness. That is the state of peace. Problems keep coming to bring about the state of peace. So, how can i complain about anything? The problems are there with a noble purpose, it is also part of the energy.

Any point in the 'total energy' is the centre; this body also is the centre and is equipped to feel (​உணர்).  அதை முழுவதும் உணர்ந்தவர்களை அறிவோம். அந்த முழு சக்தியை உணர்ந்து கொண்டுஇருக்கிறோம். ​ ஆனால், உணர்வதை உணராமல் ஊழில் உழன்று கொண்டு  இருக்கிறோம். ​

MAY BE GOOD NOT TO HAVE LONG CONVERSATION AT ALL, have only twitter-size-conversation.

"முழுவதும் உணர்ந்தவர்களை அறிவோம். அந்த முழு சக்தியை உணர்ந்து கொண்டுஇருக்கிறோம். ​ ஆனால், உணர்வதை உணராமல் ஊழில் உழன்று கொண்டு  இருக்கிறோம். "

Relating needs interaction.  உணர்ந்து கொண்டு இருக்கும்  பொழுது, for that unarvu to continue, our communication through words have to be minimalistic. Casual approach may bring about that. A senior academician pointed out that students these days don't get up to welcome teachers or get up when receiving something from the teacher. It occurred to me that may be these physical actions interrupt our wordly-consciousness and help to bring us back to physical-consciousness. What I was trying to communicate for 2 years with repeated painful failures was achieved with a massive and (controlled)violent physical-jolt recently. Does it communicate the periodic need for conscious physical activity?

THE DIFFICULTY IS BECAUSE PRESENTLY WE ARE  ACTING FROM THIS ASSUMED BODY, NOT THE UNIVERSAL BODY.​ That is why we keep falling back all the time to this body-consciousness.

When we are living in this wordly-world, wordly-reality, when all our academic, professional, career and social achievements are for this wordly-reality (whatelse is this for?), when the meaning of this wordly-reality, its pleasures and problems, is to realize this wordly-reality, when we see that even this wordly-reality, particularly these problems, are necessary for this realization, then the problems also become integral part of the reality and not apart from it.

​Path is the truth..... cause is the effect.... problem is the solution.... means is the end....... we're reaping the harvest, not planting the seed.... every instant, whether it is a thought or action, has every particle playing in it.... even if we act as if we're  separate, when every instant has every particle as participant, we become every elementary particle of the universe..... then where is the separation..... there is no end... beginning is the end..... no result.... no achievement..... every step is an end itself.... every moment is complete.... every instant is holistic...sacred...

Monday, August 31, 2015

"நாமெல்லோரும் எல்லைகளற்ற, அகண்ட ஆன்ம ஸ்வரூபமாகவே இருந்தும், தவருதலாக உடலையே 'நாம்' எனக் கருதுகிறோம். மன ஒளி பெளதீக உலகத்தை விளக்குகிறது. ஸ்வரூப விளக்க ஒளியாகிய அத்தூயப் பிரக்ஞையாகவே நாம் ஒவ்வொருவரும்  இருக்கிறோம். அத்தூய உணர்விலிருந்தே மனம் வெளிப்படுகிறது. மனத்தின் சாரம் தூய பிரக்ஞை மாத்திரமே. அகந்தையின்  ஆக்கிரமிப்பால் அது புத்தியாகவும், நினைப்பாகவும், புலன்களின் உணர்ச்சியாகவும் இயக்கமுறுகிறது. பிரக்ஞை மாத்திரமாய் தனக்கு அயலாக ஏதும் அற்றதாய் திகழும் உணர்வோ அகந்தை தளையற்றது. அகந்தையால் ஆக்கிரமிக்கப்பட்ட மனம் வலிமை குன்றி நினைப்புச் சுழல்களில் உழல்கிறது. இருப்பது அகண்ட  உணர்வு  ஒன்றே. அதுவே அகந்தையாய்க் கூனிக் குறுகி, உடலே நான் என மயங்கி புற உலகை காண்கிறது." - ரமண மகரிஷி.

அகண்ட ஆன்ம ஸ்வரூபமாகவே இருந்தும், அதனுள்  அடங்கிய  உடல் 'நாம்' எனக் கருதப்படுகிறது. அகண்ட ஆன்ம ஸ்வரூபத்தையே உடலாக கொண்டிருந்தாலும், தற்பொழுது உணர்வு  கொண்டுள்ள உடல் இதன்  உடலாக இருப்பது, அகண்ட  உணர்வுக்கு  தடையாக உள்ளது. உடலே நான் என்ற உணர்விலேயே இருந்து  கொண்டு  இருப்பதால், அகண்ட உணர்வு வெளிப்படையாமலேயே உள்ளது.

"If one understands the implications of awareness, one's body not only becomes highly sensitive, but the whole entity is activated; there is a new energy given to it. Do it, and you will see. Don't sit on the bank and speculate about the river; jump in and follow the current of this awareness, and you will find out for yourself how extraordinarily limited our thoughts, our feelings, and our ideas are. Our projections of gods, saviours, and Masters-all that becomes so obvious, so infantile". - Krishnamurti

"​அகந்தை என்று எதுவும் தனியாகக் கிடையாது என்கிறபோது அது எழுவதாவது! அதன் மூலமாகிய அவித்யை (அஞ்ஞானம்) என்பது எது? தன் மெய்ம்மையை உணராமையே அவித்யை எனப்படுவது. தன்னைத் தானே உணருங்கால் அஞ்ஞானமும் இல்லை, அகந்தையும் இல்லை. மெய்ஞ்ஞான அறிவு சாசுவதமானது, ஏற்கனவே இருந்துவருவது. இங்கேயே இப்போதே கைவரப் பெறக்கூடியது.
ஆன்ம நாட்டத்தில் ஈடுபட்டு மேன்மேலும் உள்ளாழ்ந்து உணரும் அக்கணத்திலேயே மெய்யான ஆன்மா உம்மை வரவேற்கக் காத்திருக்கிறது. அதன்பிறகு தொடர்ந்து செய்ய வேண்டிய யாவும் வேறு எதனாலோ தொடரப்படுகிறது. அந்நிலையில் தனிநபராக மேற்கொண்டு செய்வதற்கு எதுவும் இல்லை. ஆழ்ந்த தூக்கத்தில் ஒருவர் தமது வேலைகள் எல்லாவற்றையும் மறந்து நிச்சிந்தையாக இருப்பது போன்று". -  ரமண மகரிஷி

இந்த ஷணத்தில், சில நொடித்துளிகளே வாழும் அணு முதல், அகண்ட பிரபஞ்சம் வரை, ஆக்க நிலயில் உள்ளது. ஆக்க நிலை உணர்வு நிலை. ஆக்க நிலையில் பொருட்கள் இல்லை. பொருட்கள் நிலை நினைப்பு நிலை. ஆக்க நிலையில் தொடக்கமும் இல்லை முடிவும் இல்லை. அடைய வேண்டுயது எதுவும் இல்லை. ஆக்க நிலையில், பொருள் நிலை சொற்களுக்கு, விளக்கமும் இல்லை.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

A different structure of morality

I think it is very important to learn about oneself, because it is only then that the mind can be emptied of the old, and unless the mind is emptied of the old, there can be no new impulse. It is this new, creative impulse that is essential if the individual is to bring about a different world, a different relationship, a different structure of morality. And it is only through totally emptying the mind of the old that the new impulse can come into being, give it whatever name you like,the impulse of reality, the grace of God,the feeling of something completely new, unpremeditated, something which has never been thought of, which has not been put together by the mind. Without that extraordinarily creative impulse of reality, do what you will to clear up the confusion and bring order in the social structure, it can only lead to further misery- Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. X", 252, Choiceless Awareness

Monday, August 10, 2015

The living centre
All human problems arise from this extraordinarily complex, living centre which is the 'me', and a man who would uncover its subtle ways has to be negatively aware, choicelessly observant. - Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. XII", 202, Choiceless Awareness

Questioner: How is one to empty the past?Krishnamurti: You cannot. You empty the past totally when there is no observer. It is the observer who is creating the past; it is the observer who says, 'I must do something about it in terms of time.' This is most important. It is very important to understand, when you look at a tree, that there is the tree and there is also you, the observer, looking at it. You who are looking at it have knowledge about that tree. You know what species, what colour, what shape, what kind it is, whether it is good. You have knowledge of it, so you are looking at it as an observer who is full of knowledge about it, as you look at your wife or husband with the knowledge of the past, with all the hurts and all the pleasures. You are always looking with both the observer and the thing observed present, two different states. You never look at a tree; you are always looking with the knowledge of the tree. This is very simple. To look at another -wife, husband, friend- demands that you look with a fresh mind; otherwise you cannot see. If you look with the past, with pleasure, with pain, with anxiety, with what he or she has said to you, that remains; and with all that, through all that, you look. That is the observer. If you can look at a tree or a flower or another human being without the observer, a totally different action takes place. - Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. XVI,200,Choiceless Awareness

Sunday, August 9, 2015

To commune with human beings is much more frightening

I generally look at my wife, husband, at a person, with all my prejudices and memories. Through those memories I look; that is the centre from which I look; therefore the observer is different from the thing observed. In that process thought is constantly interfering, through association, and with the rapidity of the association. Now, when I realize the whole implication of that instantly, there is an observation without the observer. It is very simple to do this with trees, with nature; but with human beings, what takes places? If I can look at my wife or my husband non-verbally, not as an observer, it is rather frightening, isn't it? Because my relationship with her or with him is quite different. It is not in any sense personal; it is not a matter of pleasure, and I am afraid of it. I can look at a tree without fear, because it is fairly easy to commune with nature, but to commune with human beings is much more dangerous and frightening; my relationship undergoes a tremendous revolution. Before, I possessed my wife, and she possessed me; we liked being possessed. We were living in our own isolated, self-identifying space. In observing, I removed that space; I am now directly in contact. I look without the observer and therefore without a centre. Unless one understands this whole problem, merely to develop a technique of looking becomes frightful. Then one becomes cynical, and all the rest of it. - Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. XV,145,Choiceless Awareness

Saturday, August 8, 2015

What is the centre? The centre is the 'me', the 'me' that wants to be a great person, that has so many conclusions, fears, motives. From that centre we think, but that centre has been created by the reaction of thinking. So can the mind be aware of thinking without the centre, just observe it? You will find how extraordinarily difficult it is just to look at a flower without naming it, without comparing it with other flowers, without evaluating it out of like or dislike. Experiment with this, and you will see how really difficult it is to observe something without bringing in all your prejudices, all your emotions and evaluations. But, however difficult, you will find that the mind can be aware of itself without the centre watching the movement of the mind. - Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. X,15,Choiceless Awareness

Now, can the mind be aware of itself in action, in movement, without a centre? I think it can. It is possible when there is only an awareness of thinking, and not the thinker who is thinking. You know, it is quite an experience to realize that there is only thinking. And it is very difficult to experience that because the thinker is habitually there, evaluating, judging, condemning, comparing, identifying. If the thinker ceases to identify, evaluate, judge, then there is only thinking, without the centre." - Krishnamurti, The Collected Works, Vol. X,15,Choiceless Awareness

Friday, August 7, 2015

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